That’s not one decision
Everyone says that you’re just one decision away from a completely different life, they hardly acknowledge how hard it is to take that decision. If it was so easy, we’d have done it by now. So don’t beat yourself up too hard for not taking that decision yet. When you’re ready and really ready, you’ll take it! And if that decision is to take it will be taken by you yourself and that too easily, you won’t have to push yourselves, so don’t drag yourself into the thing which you don’t want to do. Don’t push yourself towards confusion and delimas. Just go easy and things will happen soon in the way it needs to happen. Don’t stress yourselves because others force you to take decisions that are not meant for you.